As the old quote goes, “it’s hard to believe it’s been a year already.” But alas, the year of 2011 is about to give way to 2012. What can be said about 2011…oh, 2011 you started out as a bitchy whore then slowly, and I mean slowly, you blossomed into an elegant escort worth spending money on.
Reflecting on the past year brings tears to my eyes, the sad kind and the good kind. Trouble seemed to have followed me in every part of my life in 2011 with friends, family, loves, myself…it seemed as though my little bubble of a world had met the apocalypse early. I had hit my lowest of lows, having feelings and thoughts I had long forgotten about. Depression, despair, self-loathing seemed to be my only comforting companions. I was about to settle for things in my life that didn’t make me happy, but would simply be a temporary fix to my problems. This idea seemed stupid. On a chance encounter, just when I convinced myself that my life was going to continue to be a mess, someone entered my life that would alter the outcome of my very existence. Suddenly all the mess that I had encountered over the previous months seemed to subside, and some of it even began to make sense. It took a friend, a companion, a conspirator to make me see that all the crap that I had been through was just leading me to this moment.
Alas my ramblings have a point and will come to an end…I promise. I guess what I’m getting at is that life is crappy more so then not, and sometimes when you are just about to give-up, you get that extra boost. Call it inspiration, knowledge, or even love. So to those of you who doubt yourself and yourself being, and think that the world is crumbling and you are going insane, look to good friends and give people a chance, you’ll be surprised at what you find.
May all have a wonderful and memorable New Year’s….assuming we don’t all parish in the Apocalypse.
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